Saturday, March 15, 2008
and i simply cant move my lower part of my body after yesterday.and i got to stay at home and recuperate.
''Maybe I have said too much or really haven't said enough.All these words they come undone and I'm getting lost in the meaning''
For today , i wasted today.
''Maybe I have said too much or really haven't said enough.All these words they come undone and I'm getting lost in the meaning''
For today , i wasted today.
Y and i wish/
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
never have been one to write it down.Now i think i can. i know i'm stronger now.haha.
''Sitting here wishing
The things I've become
That something is missing
Maybe I...
But what do I know
And now it seems that I have found nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
Slow it down, slow it down
Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all''
afterall, it still revolved around me. i thought i had it put behind me long time ago .
''Sitting here wishing
The things I've become
That something is missing
Maybe I...
But what do I know
And now it seems that I have found nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
Slow it down, slow it down
Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all''
afterall, it still revolved around me. i thought i had it put behind me long time ago .
Y and i wish/
Friday, February 08, 2008
And now you'll see that we've grown to change .A contradiction to the lives that we have made. Still I miss you deep inside /( i still try my luck there.)
i still feel sore about what happen today.
i still feel sore about what happen today.
Labels: i thought i knew who you were.
Y and i wish/
Thursday, January 17, 2008
erm , RANDOM post. haha..i'm seriously touched by their actions today .so please dont accuse me of being ungrateful. lol..and all i could say , i didnt make the wrong choice . and yes , i was wrong in the past , i was wrong in almost every desicion that i've made.i chose the wrong path , my circle of friends and yes , i'm kind of regretting now. at this very moment.maybe , time isnt on our side, and maybe all of us are too young to even know what's right , and what's wrong.and dear friends , i'm not going to make any mistakes anymore. and i know , this time round , i make the correct choice .
and i guess , i missed the happy times with my besties. and i seriously miss block-catching and basketball.everything that we do , we do it for a reason , things happen for a reason .and there is a reason behind everything . is really time , we choose what we want .
i wish i have the power to change the world.all i want is time to stop , and backtrack.
the tattoos of memories.
''The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
since you've been gone, it's not the same.''
and i guess , i missed the happy times with my besties. and i seriously miss block-catching and basketball.everything that we do , we do it for a reason , things happen for a reason .and there is a reason behind everything . is really time , we choose what we want .
i wish i have the power to change the world.all i want is time to stop , and backtrack.
the tattoos of memories.
''The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
since you've been gone, it's not the same.''
Y and i wish/
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
As you swallow this confession and leave me with this scar .it takes another second to let me go too far.It doesn't seem to matter, any more.
I could write another letter nd never write one word. As it takes another second to remind me too.
Hours pass into minutes, kissing the seconds away,and days, they seem to melt just like your classic summers.It's come to the point where everything loses perspective...and I'm the one, my prying eyes wander west to where oceans meet gold,and you wonder why my heart, it breaks.
An interesting person indeed. if only , i didnt gave a big reaction to it. and well, i was nearly close to it. no , no , no.it wont happen . not now , not anymore.
if only you know , what i'm referring to.
I could write another letter nd never write one word. As it takes another second to remind me too.
Hours pass into minutes, kissing the seconds away,and days, they seem to melt just like your classic summers.It's come to the point where everything loses perspective...and I'm the one, my prying eyes wander west to where oceans meet gold,and you wonder why my heart, it breaks.
An interesting person indeed. if only , i didnt gave a big reaction to it. and well, i was nearly close to it. no , no , no.it wont happen . not now , not anymore.
if only you know , what i'm referring to.
Y and i wish/
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
And it came from nothing but there was always somethingAnd when the sky burned brighter, the nights grew darker.Hold on to everyone that I hold dearest to my heart
And I won't forget them.Fading, always fading,never needed more waiting, always waiting.
Scraped across the wooden floor and the passing time reaches out and covers me with images of everyone that I have known.
and i surrender myself .
And I won't forget them.Fading, always fading,never needed more waiting, always waiting.
Scraped across the wooden floor and the passing time reaches out and covers me with images of everyone that I have known.
and i surrender myself .
Y and i wish/
Sunday, August 05, 2007
I've got a bruised up heart .
But I'm still hanging out,I should take it easy
but I'm still gonna get around
There's something growing on the outside
Too much missing on the inside
Should I waste more time when everything is done and done and overdone?
But I'm still hanging out,I should take it easy
but I'm still gonna get around
There's something growing on the outside
Too much missing on the inside
Should I waste more time when everything is done and done and overdone?
Y and i wish/
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
We all have our sob stories to tell. The only difference is whose story is sadder and who makes a better narrator.
Things don't often go as smoothly as we want them to go. Well, Shakespeare said, "the course of true love never did run smooth", didn't him? If even true love doesn't run smoothly, how can we even expect the other issues in our life to run smoothly too?
Sometimes it's better to know people at the face value, then there won't be any disappointments or expectations. The truth hurts actually, that's why I strongly believe that ignorance is bliss. Denial is good sometimes. At least, if you don't think too much, you don't know so much, it won't hurt so much.
Sometimes it's better to know people at the face value, then there won't be any disappointments or expectations. The truth hurts actually, that's why I strongly believe that ignorance is bliss. Denial is good sometimes. At least, if you don't think too much, you don't know so much, it won't hurt so much.
well, had inter-class netball tdy.. was quite a good experience, though we lost, but we lost with honour.. must really say 4e6 is good lah.. ahhaha.. infact, our chances are good aslo, but somehow, things cropped up. not as smoothly as i thought it was.. hahah. i end up begging ppl to help me play. blame myself. for not joining when they ask me to. lucky, there are still KIND souls in this world, who help me join in for the sake of fun lah!! well, my class rox lah!!
hate myself for not telling it lah. well, it came too end lah.
is impossible.. i think... and i think..........i wont say it , those words shall remain unsaid. things must stay at the way it is now..
Y and i wish/
Thursday, January 25, 2007
alot of things happened these few days. though i wasnt feeling as good as my besties tot i would. but i still tried taking it to my stride..my bunch of besties are really WONDERFUL!! haahha...really very happy together with them.. hahaha.. super fun!!! the best thing is.. we all ENJOY PLAYING BLOCK CATCHING!! hahahaha...
the sad thing is.. i wasnt used to be wad i am..
and so hey you go thinking " things CANT get any worst",
but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
It just did.
I can hear ticking clocks,
Running rampant in me.
it's hard to wave goodbye from aeroplanes,
when i just don't think that you can see i taper off
and say its never worth the pain, but sometimes it is.
you'll nv understand ..that's life..
Tie my hands back,
Put this rope to my neck,
And kick the chair away from under my legs.......
Labels: I lost Your heart somewhere along the depths of sea.
Y and i wish/
Sunday, January 21, 2007
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hahah..yest went kbox with those bunch of ''good'' frens .. hahaha.. supposedly was to do the damm CIP.. hahaha.. we did.. but only for awhile.. coz we are simply too lazy for it.. and the damm thing was, they actually gave us 2 bucks for refreshment.. i was thinking, if they can afford to give ach of us 2 bucks for refreshment, y bother to ask for donation in the first place..
hahaha.. early in the morning, went to eat at mac and talk rubbish with the ''rockers'' hahahha.. damm stupid.. somemore , stick stickers all over their shirt and they looked like IDOITS .. hahaha... wad to do.. in the end, we went our separate ways, dunno y aslo..
in the end went to kbox to slack , after which went to crystal jade with my FAMILY!! hahaha.. hahaha..
realised something. i'm getting worst at typing. my fingers seems to be trembling alot man.. maybe i didnt type for long, and my speed was like super slow slow.. hahha..
tdy , didnt really do much. went to compass. as usual.. was expecting a msg from someone, den started msging for about an hour, and the msging cease .. just as i expected... ....
i used to know the sound of a smile in your voice,
but right now all i feel,
is the pain of the fighting starting off again
you know the things we talk about
,you know they stay on my mind.
Labels: the sadness still remains
Y and i wish/
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Y and i wish/
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
ive realised that ive been ignorant to alot of stuff thats been going on.while ive been sitting ard at home,listening to songs.
the world goes on.
sighs~..somehow, wasnt feeling good.. it has been long since i felt good. couldnt rmb the last time that i'm really happy.. there isnt any thing that could make me feel happy again. i guess so..
as i mention in my few post that,i actually did smth that i shldnt be doing at all. but since i did it, i have no choice but to bear the torment now..
Bitter sweet migraine in my head...................
i dunno laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........
So i shall put a disclaimer note:
Everything said on the above has nothing to do with anyone,
its purely fictional and coincidental.
You've got the best of my heartIt broke and now it's just a joke...
the world goes on.
sighs~..somehow, wasnt feeling good.. it has been long since i felt good. couldnt rmb the last time that i'm really happy.. there isnt any thing that could make me feel happy again. i guess so..
as i mention in my few post that,i actually did smth that i shldnt be doing at all. but since i did it, i have no choice but to bear the torment now..
Bitter sweet migraine in my head...................
i dunno laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........
So i shall put a disclaimer note:
Everything said on the above has nothing to do with anyone,
its purely fictional and coincidental.
You've got the best of my heartIt broke and now it's just a joke...
Y and i wish/
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
I'm so tired of sleeping with the covers over my head,
Wishing the dreaded night would end.
dreaded days drag on,w
hite daisies by my window,
the night skies fill with stars that i never fail to compared them to Your eyes.
tattoos of memories~
Wishing the dreaded night would end.
dreaded days drag on,w
hite daisies by my window,
the night skies fill with stars that i never fail to compared them to Your eyes.
tattoos of memories~
Y and i wish/
Sunday, January 07, 2007
i used to know the sound of a smile in your voice,
but right now all i feel,
is the pain of the fighting starting off again
you know the things we talk about,
you know they stay on my mind.
tdy went to raffles hotel to celebrate my niece birthday.. wow! the lunch was suoer nice .. eat till i nearly can vomit.. and mind you, is a 6 star hotel.. is located near bugis there... oh man! .. how i wish my birthday lunch will be there... hahaha.. i waiting for it..
though tdy, i tried not to do THIS THING, but once again, i did the things that i shouldnt be doing at all. i did mention in my last post that, i will not do this anymore. i make it clear that it was the last time i'm going to do it, but , somehow, i did it again. oh SHUCKS! how could i!!!..
i couldnt stop my fingers at all.. and somehow, i'm kind of regretting now.. how am i going to face it?? think tdy was the worst day for me. couldnt understand wad the bloody hell i'm doind at all. all the things that i'm doing now, is super super wrong..
i'm not used being myself now.. somehow, i feel super lost. it seems that i cant forget anything at all..
as strong as a cactus in the desert,
but when it all boils down to this,
i'm like a small little flower.
in the path of a incoming hurricane.
You know how i can never be too sure about anything...
inflicted pain.
but right now all i feel,
is the pain of the fighting starting off again
you know the things we talk about,
you know they stay on my mind.
tdy went to raffles hotel to celebrate my niece birthday.. wow! the lunch was suoer nice .. eat till i nearly can vomit.. and mind you, is a 6 star hotel.. is located near bugis there... oh man! .. how i wish my birthday lunch will be there... hahaha.. i waiting for it..
though tdy, i tried not to do THIS THING, but once again, i did the things that i shouldnt be doing at all. i did mention in my last post that, i will not do this anymore. i make it clear that it was the last time i'm going to do it, but , somehow, i did it again. oh SHUCKS! how could i!!!..
i couldnt stop my fingers at all.. and somehow, i'm kind of regretting now.. how am i going to face it?? think tdy was the worst day for me. couldnt understand wad the bloody hell i'm doind at all. all the things that i'm doing now, is super super wrong..
i'm not used being myself now.. somehow, i feel super lost. it seems that i cant forget anything at all..
as strong as a cactus in the desert,
but when it all boils down to this,
i'm like a small little flower.
in the path of a incoming hurricane.
You know how i can never be too sure about anything...
inflicted pain.
Labels: nowtheniknowicantforget
Y and i wish/
Saturday, January 06, 2007
too strong, for too long.changed coke into pepsi!
"well done then.
You took this heart and made it a little colder,
a little stronger,
a little less for You.
Someday, perhaps I'd be just like You.
Write me a ransom letter,
And allow me,
to write You a deathnote.
somehow, yset i was out of my mind.i did something that i shouldnt be doing at all..
i didnt expect things to come out of it .. it didnt anyway...
bdbs
Y and i wish/
yest went celebrating baby xin yi birthday . though it was very fun and happy, but somehow i'm being reminded of the past....the clock never felt so alive
The hand of my clock strikes two.
In times when I got the best of you
i made promises i couldn't keep
And every night i couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life, yes the first time in my life
Where I, did something right.
i miss You.
sch started and many things happening in sch was really very unexpected.. many things around me change,which makes me couldnt accept in the first place. i couldnt imagine myself being back in the sch, studying and most importantly, mugging for o level examinations.
i couldnt make up my mind towards certain things and i'm left regretting for my rest of my life.. realised that i'm so bloody fuck up with myself .. hate myself for being so indecisive in the past. no matter, how i change now, things wont be the same anymore.. tried forgetting the past but recently, i realised i couldnt forget at all...
The hand of my clock strikes two.
In times when I got the best of you
i made promises i couldn't keep
And every night i couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life, yes the first time in my life
Where I, did something right.
i miss You.
sch started and many things happening in sch was really very unexpected.. many things around me change,which makes me couldnt accept in the first place. i couldnt imagine myself being back in the sch, studying and most importantly, mugging for o level examinations.
i couldnt make up my mind towards certain things and i'm left regretting for my rest of my life.. realised that i'm so bloody fuck up with myself .. hate myself for being so indecisive in the past. no matter, how i change now, things wont be the same anymore.. tried forgetting the past but recently, i realised i couldnt forget at all...
Y and i wish/
Thursday, December 14, 2006
it doesn't matter anyway.
Not that strong,
Never thought that i would
,the way i do.
The silence that triggers insecurity.
Not that strong,
Never thought that i would
,the way i do.
The silence that triggers insecurity.
Labels: sick cycle
Y and i wish/
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
So, go past all the lights and excuse," Don't forget me." " I won't remember anything else."
this wretched mind
i'm tired.
how are u?
Y and i wish/
Sunday, November 26, 2006
so tired man. was watching channel 62 and this LORRAIN came to disturb me.. haiyor..watch halfway lorr.. went to eat supper with siya at serangoon there .. haha.. we eat curry fish head, and she actually ate 2 bowls of rice, i was like, impressed and amazed by her HUGE appetite .. i just sat down to watch tv and msg started to come.. too busy to continue watching show, coz i'm busy replying.. actuallyi have no intention to come online.. but a problem arise..
Walk past my grave in the dark tonight,
Saw the stone and the note you left for me,to answer your question
I just had to leave,
I just had to leave,
i tried doing something that i didnt did before.. and this thing cause me to lose something really really important.. and the sad thing is , i didnt said anything.. things carried on...
blogging, blogging and blogging.. is there anyone really reading it?? YOU?? haha...
Walk past my grave in the dark tonight,
Saw the stone and the note you left for me,to answer your question
I just had to leave,
I just had to leave,
i tried doing something that i didnt did before.. and this thing cause me to lose something really really important.. and the sad thing is , i didnt said anything.. things carried on...
blogging, blogging and blogging.. is there anyone really reading it?? YOU?? haha...
Labels: YOU
Y and i wish/
Saturday, November 25, 2006
it just a fragment of my imagination.
Too little, too late.
nothing has change so far..
Too little, too late.
nothing has change so far..
Labels: me and my stupiditly
Y and i wish/
Friday, November 24, 2006
Today,
My obituary appeared on the newspaper,And You hit the headlines for being my murderer.
My obituary appeared on the newspaper,And You hit the headlines for being my murderer.
Y and i wish/
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
....no it isn't.
maybe i was wrong, this could be too much for me.
there's no more sense of completion.
all i felt today was this sense of emptiness.
burn these unsent letters,
it doesnt mean shit to You.
turn your back to me,
i cant afford to get lost in those sleepy eyes,
yet again.and hear your voice of treason
sick of blogging.... haha... think i cannot stand LORRAIN CHAI lorr.. hahas.. that day she cried man! i was totally shocked and stunned! .. it so unbelievable that she cried that day! hahah... but come to think to it, the person who scolded her was too much man.. she is such a shrew! lucky she didnt scold me , if not i think i will CRY EVEN MORE MISERABLE THAN LORRAIN CHAI! lol.. haha..i 'm such a SIMPLISTIC PERSON, doubt any one will scold me! haha... she is so in sufferable . doubt any one can stand her..
see! lorrain, i have spoken up for you lorr.. haha.. please be GRATEFUL AND APPRECIATE MY EFFORTS ! HAHA.. this post taken up 10 mins of my time man! haha...
maybe i was wrong, this could be too much for me.
there's no more sense of completion.
all i felt today was this sense of emptiness.
burn these unsent letters,
it doesnt mean shit to You.
turn your back to me,
i cant afford to get lost in those sleepy eyes,
yet again.and hear your voice of treason
sick of blogging.... haha... think i cannot stand LORRAIN CHAI lorr.. hahas.. that day she cried man! i was totally shocked and stunned! .. it so unbelievable that she cried that day! hahah... but come to think to it, the person who scolded her was too much man.. she is such a shrew! lucky she didnt scold me , if not i think i will CRY EVEN MORE MISERABLE THAN LORRAIN CHAI! lol.. haha..i 'm such a SIMPLISTIC PERSON, doubt any one will scold me! haha... she is so in sufferable . doubt any one can stand her..
see! lorrain, i have spoken up for you lorr.. haha.. please be GRATEFUL AND APPRECIATE MY EFFORTS ! HAHA.. this post taken up 10 mins of my time man! haha...
Labels: poor girl
Y and i wish/
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
when it comes to You,
should i say i screwed up,
or that i'm a screw up
the causes of my downfall would prolly be,cause i care too much,
or i could never accept changes
or i'm afraid of losing.
Maybe cause the world is changing ever so fast,
so i grab on to the only thing that doesn't really change,
Past, and i know it's wrong
hasnt been blogging for quite long.. haha.. lazy.. got to go!
going vivo tdy!
should i say i screwed up,
or that i'm a screw up
the causes of my downfall would prolly be,cause i care too much,
or i could never accept changes
or i'm afraid of losing.
Maybe cause the world is changing ever so fast,
so i grab on to the only thing that doesn't really change,
Past, and i know it's wrong
hasnt been blogging for quite long.. haha.. lazy.. got to go!
going vivo tdy!
Labels: lazy
Y and i wish/
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