....nth to do.. staring into blank spaces again.... thinking.. thinking and thinking...jus nw sms amanda..hahaha.. yest tot u say u not touched?? only got abit sad.. den in your sms u say u touched... super contradicting lorr! hahah.. dunno lehh.. somehow i just feel tt way.. seeing how ppl behave and seeing how they react to different situation..standing there see ppl do this do tt and everything.. haha..sometimes i really disagree to their way of handling certain things but i do not have the right to interfere or comment.. is their choice and they made the decision themselves .whatever the outcome is,they have to accept and learn from it... get the point?.. ppl often take certain things for granted.it's only when they lost it,they then realise the importance of it.that's human's nature...i think i am one of the guilty ones coz.. i am super fickle in many things.. the things i desire and so on.. i tend to give it up at the crucial moment and regret after a few's day of thinking.. but is alr too late. we cant turn back things or expect the things to turn up the way we want. is rather impossible..yups..i am waiting for a breakthrough..i dun want to feel lost and disappointed anymore.. serious.[ALL]all i want is to be remembered.all i want is to be recongizedall i want is to be namedall i want is to be the one you will rememberall i want is to be a page you flip back to.all i want is to have a happy memory.............all i want is to be...................yups.do hope that ppl have the same thinking as i have now..a week of hoilday makes me tot of many things.in sch..seeing how my friends react to certain things,and seeing some breaking down through the process,and some suffering in silence make me wanting the think hard.. and maybe reflect..hey guy.. dun despair, move on with hope and live your sch life the fullest u can!!!!!! happy jiu hao..many will think that they are sick of sch,sick of exam,sick of competing with others,sick of their frens and sick of themselves.. i'm also one of them.. trying to runaway to a place of no exam,no stress,no hurt.no quarrel,no sch.. yups...i think..........
i'm sore.i'm tired.i don't want to doi want to give up.i don't want do anythingi want to live my life.i want to love what i live.i'm sore.i'm tired.i don't want betrayali don't want denial.i don't want lies.i want truth.i want happiness.i want HOPE.my eyes have been drained of life.my body exhausted.my hope and spirit whittled down.little by little.i want hope.the hope in my eyes has slowly faded away.i want hope.the hope in my heart has been chizzled away.i need hope.the hope in my head has melted away.lost in a material world.
i happen to read this in one of the books tt my sis bought.. amusing right??haha..this is how i feel aslo. i no longer have the faith and hope i have in the past.no confidence in almost everything i do. i am scared of making decison coz i fear i make the wrong one. i dun want regret anymore.. i'm trying to stay happy and hopeful.. waiting for certain things to return back to me...yups.tdy very bored.. dun feel like going out with one of my new fren.. prefer to stayat home and stone.weird right???anyway my elder sis is a committed christian and out of curiousity i often flip open her bible and start reading.. lol.. lame hobbies right.. but i do learn alot things.. has this answered touy question???(mrs goh and real).. hahah..
ppl tot me that goodbyes will always hurt.pictures will never replace having been there.memories tt are good and bad will brings tears.and words can nv replace feelings.