And i thought i had it put behind me long time ago

Friday, September 22, 2006

... halz.. back to blogging again..cant find anything to do aslo..a moment before i was reading someone blog. got alot of things to say, but i dunno how to say.. i am very bad at expressing myself .. the things tt i care alot, i dun seem to show it out. and this in turn led to many things... these few days , i have been thinking alot.. going to the awing more often than i expected.. i swing away all my troubles,sadness, and everything during the time there..

during the days i did not attend sch, many things ran through my mind.. the next few days i wont be going aslo.. except monday.. got to take back report book.. i seems to have a phobia going to sch.. i rather i stay at home..come to think of it.. i realised tt i no longer have the interest to study or even to basketball..

i really wonder..are the things i heard is true?? or wad?? am i too simple-minded??.. i did heard alot of hurting yet true things abt someone..i begin to wonder.. are u deceiving me from the start?? are the things i heard is true? are u really that kind of person?? y are u doing these things? i really dunno. however, i still chose to believe wad u say and i will change my stand abt u, until i find out the truth.. is everything ur friends say abt u is true?? before this, i still tot i used to understand u, now i am begining to have this doubt.. do i really understand u??? or do i not?? this things may seems trival to u, but it seems rather important me. i really want the truth..
even if everyhing in the past is all a bluff, i wont be angry with u or anything.. i cant imgaine u are that kind of person.. it really terrifies me. it's making me scared of u...i really cant.. i still believe u are not that type of person. i have faith .. i dun care how others say abt u, how they criticise u and ur behaviour,how they see u.. it doesnt matter to me.. coz i still have this belief that u are certainly not that kind of person which others describe u as...i believe u!

i like this song alot.. really.. i'm not missing u!...i dunno aslo.. quite miss the times without u.. cant tell u many things tt i wish u to noe.. avoiding sch to aviod u.. i dun want to see the things tt i dun wish to see.. i know u noe wad i mean..

Y and i wish/

2:55 PM