And i thought i had it put behind me long time ago

Friday, September 22, 2006

happiness isnt all that's matter.. when we look back.we'll see things in a diff perspective.maybe we shld leave it to heaven's will.if u really cherish it give it another chance.i think i'm like a failure sinking deep down into the sea.. if's that really wad u want.. i rather i dun see u..

i close my eyes and think of u .i make my way around aimlessly,smiling at the memories we share.suddenly my tears started flow.y am i gazing at the sky without saying anything.i almost could not breathe.the things now reallt terrifies me.you used to live in my heart. i think i tried giving everything i had ,w.anting to share everything together.i have to bear this pain. y me??? this broken hurt of mine hurts even more...
when u feel sad, i feel even more sad
when feel hurt, i feel even hurt..
u doesnt seem to appreciated it.. u regarded me as a..................
i am uncertain..in the end it still end in a miserable way..
i expected it. i thought there will more happy days ahead.. i was wrong .. totally wrong...
sigh... i dun deny tt i am sad and seems like everything i do, i just dun get it right..
so much so.. i avoided many things.. i still continued to breathe,eat,sleep and aslo to smile.because ppl sees me as a happy go lucky person. with no worries and everything.. after so much, i realised tt i shouldn't be so persistent in certain things and i am super fickle..i am not.. seriously, now, i am still as devoted as i used to be , still as faithful as before. i haven change. i am still the same..cant u see the bitterness in my heart??? sigh...i tried to saty happy but yet i am still in tears...

to hide my tears, i laugh out loud.
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is there anyone that can understand ??? seeing u happily moving on, i somehow feel happy..
sometimes we gain some, sometime we lose some..think it was just my wishful thinking on my part.i sems to be sway away by emotions.somehow i am overwhemled by emotions...

Y and i wish/

2:06 PM