And i thought i had it put behind me long time ago
Thursday, September 28, 2006
i leaf again and again through these miserable memories... you took advantage of my disadvantage you took advantage of my inner essential innocence because u cheated me... cheated me of my redemption...
i noe with absolute certainty tt i am nth to you,nothing at all... oh yes.. you enjoy talking to me, you once grown fond of the things i say and everything... throwing open my brusied heart like this... in time gone by, many disappointment, came by my way... i felt that i was losing contact with the reality...
i once cherished and adored.. i am only trying to describe these things, not to relive them in my present boundless misery, but to sort out the portion of hell and the portion of heaven....
these days i realised that i missed alot of things... missing the happy times.. missing all the rubbish and nonsense.i tot i understand u but actually i did not. i tot u understand how i feel... but.. i was wrong..i didnt noe to u, i am hiding my character.. i am damm bloody the confused this confusion made me downright disappointed...
tot things could be replace but i was wrong..i dun have the courage to do anything..i know i am fickle and indecisive...but i am trying hard to change though many things have change. but my heart doesnt change at all..
the mind is its own place and in itself. can make a heaven of hell a hell of heaven for where your treasure is, there will your heart be aslo..
Y and i wish/
5:58 PM
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Name:Kong barbara
i wish i could put everything i felt into words.
but words fail us all sometimes.